This is a hard thing for me, change. There are some changes I need to make, especially as a mom, and it is really hard for me to make them. For some reason I think about it and try to implement it but then cannot seem to actually follow through and get past the initial planning part! I am such a planner!
I read an interesting article about "Losing It" with your kids and I found a lot of it to ring true with me. I have never thought of trying to be a "god" to my kids but the principles were accurate and I know for sure that I freak out because I am impatient and frustrated because MY agenda is not being fulfilled.
It is funny because I feel like I have heard all of the suggestions of prayer and love before but somehow it just does not click into actions. That is where I fail, in the follow through in the long term. I am hoping that by writing this down that I will hold myself accountable and try to DO these things and not just say them. My fear is living in the police state that the article refers to and having my children be afraid of me. That is not where I want to be 10 years down the road. Hopefully this change can be one for the better, one that I make for good!